Zero Balance.

I received one of the most beautiful things in the mail today.

It was an envelope.  No.  Not just any envelope.  It was from my 2nd oldest daughter’s college.

What was inside, you ask?  This:


Receipt for the last payment I will ever have to make to that particular institution for this particular daughter.

I wrote Whee-Haa! on the bottom of the invoice, stuck it back in its envelope and put it on my husband’s shelf, for him to happily find!

Four years ago, she began a race to obtain a nursing degree in a small town in Oklahoma. Just under two hours from home. She knew no one. I counted her brave.

I told her not to blink. That if we both did we would find ourselves where we are today, crossing the finish line. I guess we both blinked.

As I think back over the last four years, as I sit at my computer this afternoon, I am overwhelmed with gratefulness.

Not only has He provided for our daughter’s education, He has provided her with many friends, experiences and, most importantly, her fiancee. And I find myself wanting to thank Him, my faithful, loving, good Provider.

For, oh so much more, than what shows on this small slip of paper.

What do I know about love?

Some days little at all.  My heart curls into a fetal position refusing to grow.  It, at times, longs to remain dormant and unfeeling. It resists and tries to protect itself from the pain love often brings. An embryonic heart with clustered cells packed tightly resisting making room for even one more person…no…not one more.


Other days, it unfurls and expands, embracing easily the prickly and the hard, the soft and the fluid, those like and unlike itself. The nautilus of my heart on these days, expands and adds room after room with mercy and grace, bathing the objects in love.


What I desire is for all my days to have a heart that loves like His, consistent and whole. Oh Lord, make me consistent and whole.


Conform my love to the one that displays You.

You, the Embracer of my fetal heart, the Flooder of my nautilus heart, You fill me & make me whole.


It is a new day in Christ

Romans 5: 1-11
J.B. Phillips New Testament

5 1-2 Since then it is by faith that we are justified, let us grasp the fact that we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have confidently entered into this new relationship of grace, and here we take our stand, in happy certainty of the glorious things he has for us in the future.


3-5 This doesn’t mean, of course, that we have only a hope of future joys—we can be full of joy here and now even in our trials and troubles. Taken in the right spirit these very things will give us patient endurance; this in turn will develop a mature character, and a character of this sort produces a steady hope, a hope that will never disappoint us. Already we have some experience of the love of God flooding through our hearts by the Holy Spirit given to us.


6-8 And we can see that it was while we were powerless to help ourselves that Christ died for sinful men. In human experience it is a rare thing for one man to give his life for another, even if the latter be a good man, though there have been a few who have had the courage to do it. Yet the proof of God’s amazing love is this: that it was while we were sinners that Christ died for us.


9-11 Moreover, if he did that for us while we were sinners, now that we are men justified by the shedding of his blood, what reason have we to fear the wrath of God? If, while we were his enemies, Christ reconciled us to God by dying for us, surely now that we are reconciled we may be perfectly certain of our salvation through his living in us. Nor, I am sure, is this a matter of bare salvation—we may hold our heads high in the light of God’s love because of the reconciliation which Christ has made.


May the gift of the resurrection of Jesus Christ fill your heart with joy this day!

James 1: 22-27

Day 1 and Day 2 177

22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23 Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror 24 and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.

26 Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless. 27 Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.